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Took at 9:40 hr around 100 sending up. 105. Not. Not very good effects good but noticeable 12:17 it leveled out in a good way

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by 6pm HR normalised

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5. One hard truth (said gently) Buying the best thing is often your brain saying: “I don’t trust myself to show up consistently, so I’ll outsource confidence to objects.” The fix is not more discipline. It’s self-trust built through imperfect repetition. DHD brains are chronically low on dopamine. Buying or researching the “best” gear gives: novelty certainty anticipation a sense of identity (“I’m a cyclist / swimmer / ML person”) That dopamine hit happens before the activity, so the brain learns: Preparing feels as good as (or better than) doing. Once the gear arrives, the dopamine spike is gone — and so is the drive. 2. All-or-nothing thinking ADHD strongly correlates with black-and-white cognition: “If I’m doing this, I must do it properly” https://chatgpt.com/s/t_6987772d55c4819186b2e98f2db4090a

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Im adhd and have thsu thing where I need the best thing. like the best bike when I was cycling best swim stuff best MacBook. even though im just starting my journey and sometimes end up hardly using th stuff I buy. why is that? like I have this need to over prepare

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Executive control is underpowered in real time The systems that: select the right response suppress the wrong one time the response require dopamine-stabilised signalling. In ADHD: dopamine release is inconsistent response selection doesn’t “lock in” multiple responses compete at once So you know what something means, but nothing wins decisively.

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This is the ADHD experience because the brain step that links meaning → action is unreliable.

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It’s about manually sequencing behaviour that others get for free. That perception does not bind itself to a ready-made behavioural response.

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More inertia in attention and emotion

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Meds come down 1-2pm Saturday

inner restlessness or agitation • tight chest or shallow breathing • racing or looping thoughts • irritability or emotional sensitivity • sense of dread or “something’s wrong” • mental fatigue but physical tension • low mood or sudden self-criticism That cluster overlaps almost perfectl - small thoughts hit harder • guilt/shame loops appear • planning or relationship topics feel heavier

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From 1-2 was almost come down. At 2:10 I don’t feel anything

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Перший час був просто супер mild body high super positive and ope

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I want to test it

I feel hungover edit

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